Psychotic.

Is where the state of mind is abnormal. Or lost contact with the reality.

It included hallucination & delusion.

Today, i would like to say something bout psychotic depression.

Before i totally forgot, lets kick out the satans.

Assalamualaikum Geniuses :[)

Have you ever felt so depress that made your sense went insane?

And it turns you into a dunce?

Wanted to smash your head against the wall.

Or even more extreme by suicide.

that is soo stupid

But it's psychotic. So, i understood. Yet still stupid.

Everyone felt and will feels it.

Like i did.

Like you did.

Like our friends did.

Last but not least, our family did.

Do you ever wonder, how can our mama be so strong having child that's wild like us.

or maybe just me

How can she bares to deal with us?

How can she handle us, the job, husband and whatsoever.

Ever ask you mommy?

I never ask her.

Because I know whatever her answer is she's still AWESOME.

Or your daddy too.

For us who taking medicine, the pressure gonna be a lot.

But it gonna teach us how to face the future, maybe better that anyone else.

Having an examination with sikit punya paper.

Halt killing yourself.

It wont move you nowhere better.

'study hard, you gonna be the best among the best'

HAKTUIH

Takde makna nya. Tu lagi psycho. Tapi ada betulnya jugak actually.

Study smart la senang :[)

"If at first you don't succeed, Try, try, try again."

- William Edward Hickson

Failure is the greatest teacher.

Sadder but wiser.

Satu hari nanti semua orang akan rasa depress.

Mungkin ada yang akan patah balik.

Tapi dont EVER stop trying.

Know what i mean?

Eg : Fail dalam exam. Maybe some of us take it for granted or sebagai motivation.

Ada yang maybe stop belajar ke apa ke. Jangan la pandang serong sangat kan.

Maybe bukan jodoh dia study course tu. Tapi jangan la dah la stop pastu duduk tepi bus stop kacau anak dara orang, bini orang, laki orang ke apa ke.

Pegi la belajar benda laen ke selain dari belajar bercinta -.-"

Medic ni kalau tak pass, carry paper.

Kalau tak pass gak, repeat year.

I complaint it to my mom just now.

Know what she said?

"You can do it. I know you can. You are a good student. Please dont be so depress. If you still feel so, take wuduk' and do solat sunat and ask Allah to open you heart and be a better learner"

-my mama-

Aku ni orang biasa je.

Belajar bagi aku macam tidur.

Kalau bosan or tak de keja baru baca.

Kalau ngantok tidur ah.

Tapi takde la aku tak belajar langsung. Melingkup la kan.

Tipu la sape tidur je boleh pandai.

Tapi maybe ada, tapi kalau rasa tak sampai tahap tu jangan la kepandaian sangat nak buat.

Mau jadi tukang sapu je kang.

eh tapi tukang sapu jalan kat Jepun gaji tinggi gak pe

dulu aku penah pike, kalau aku tak belajar rerajin, aku nak lari jepun.

tukang sapu pun kaya.

Hahahah tutttttttt pale!

Susah kan depress.

Nak hentak kepala takut mati sebelum kawen.

Nak dengar lagu, tapi kadang kadang tu rasa semua lagu perli kita.

Nak nangis, tapi nak cover macho.

Nak makan takut gemuk.

Nak tak nak, terpaksa la aku ckp

kecik kecik tak nak mati dah beso nyusahkan orang.

Papepun tah la.

Aku fikir, macam mana nak hilang kan depression ni.

Satu yang aku perasan la bila kita dah jauh dengan parent,

kita jadi touching semacam.

Betul tak?

Mama tak call sehari, dah gila semacam.

Kalau kat Malaysia?

Mama tak call pun takpe, bestfriends ada.

tah pape tah

Remajakan.

Perangai macam apa.

Antara yang aku rasa berguna la kan.

Ini apa yang aku rasa je.

• Tells the parent. Bila kita kusut semacam. Mandi tak wangi, makan tak sedap, tidur mimpi ngeri. Cakap la kat parent. At least the know apa yang buat korang risau. Kalau pape jadi pun dorang faham bahawanya korang memang ada problem dengan benda alah tu.

• Find someone who can lend their ears. Make sure they are trusted. Laki ke perempuan ke ikut suka. Tapi pandai pandai la jaga. Tell the them the point. No need drama.

• Oh ada orang dia tak berapa rapat dengan parent, find other alternative. Siblings, cousins or Allah instead.

• Take the advices that suit you well.

• Express your thought by blogging, singing, writing, read or sleep?

• Cry you heart out. Laki ke perempuan ke asal normal kau nangis je la. Mike tyson, korang rasa dia penah nangis tak? Gusti tuu. Mesti la kental kan? Aku sure dia mesti penah! Sebab dia kan main gusti mesti la sakit kena belasah. Mau tak nangis kan?

• Pray to open your heart up and move on patiently.

• Crack some jokes. It is not wrong to laugh while crying kan? For me it gonna be among the best cure. Laugh out loud and throw it away with hingusan. Ala comelnyeeeee anak mak.

• Dont sleep alone. Maybe you wanted to be alone. But tah la aku rasa kalau kau tidur sorang nanti kau rasa dunia ni kau yang punya kepala hotak. Nanti kau rasa lagi depress. Sebab nanti lahirlah perasan ditinggalkan, tidak disayangi dan mula lah buat fikir tah pape. Take your time to be alone but you are not a loner as long as you know who you are. You got yourself man. Dont be babe in arms :)

• Halt negative thinking. This devils ahhh like this soo muchh ahh. Tapi kita manusia tak boleh elak. Tapi boleh kurangkan. Sikit sikit lama lama jadi habuk kan? Hehe

• Take the positive and move on! Apa yang korang takut dulu tu, no need to keep thinking bout it but doing nothing. Macam tanam pasir harap keluar duit. Menda. Fikir fikirkan tapi fikirkan alternative dia jugak. Kalau benda yang buruk tu jadi jugak, korang buat la ia sebagai satu pengajaran and ada kebaikkan. Tanam pokok puluh tahun pastu dapat buah free, best tuu. Faham sendiri.

• TAPI kalau benda yang baek jadi, hehehehehehe belanja aku. Hahaha tak la. Aku harap korang berjaya la. Kita sama sama belajar. Andai kata ada yang kurang bernaseb baek tak kesah la sesape, jangan la perli ke apa. Next time she/he may be much better than you. Worthless you then.

Anyways, GOODLUCK peeps. I hope all of us dapat mumtaz. Amin.

Assalamualaikum :)